by Tint Tint Sandi
Myanmar-Thailand Contributor

She was always a good girl, never let her name down. She was a good pupil to her teachers, a good daughter to her parents. She never talked back to them. She believed that disrespecting her parents was one of the worst possible things to do.

People say that since she was an infant she didn’t cry. She liked to be called a good girl. When she went to school, she listened to her teachers' each and every word. She always received good grades and made herself an excellent student. Teachers loved her but her classmates hated her. She was bullied all the time but she never spoke about that at family dinner.

Then, she passed her senior year of high school with good grades. Soon after, she went to some famous university. She fell in love with a boy but she was too shy to let her love be shown on her face. She peeked at him and felt satisfied with that. She loved her roommate and would tell her secrets which included her crush on the boy. She considered this women her best friend. She thought her days in university were so joyful compared with high school. She studied hard. She fell in love and dreamt about him every night. It seemed that her life had a little bit of heaven.

Then, time passed. She graduated from university. On her graduation day, she decided to let the boy know about her love. She prepared some lines to say, how to act in front of him and all. She was so excited. The day came so quickly. She dressed like she never did before, and even wore make up. When she received her certificate, she posed for the camera and took a few photos with it. She went into the crowd and started to find him. She finally found him but, to her surprise, he was with her roommate kissing in the parking lot. He did not see her. Even if he saw her, he wouldn’t know it was her: he never noticed her. She saw her roommate winking at her while they were kissing. She felt so lost, ran back home in the rain without her umbrella.

Time passed.

She worked for renowned firm with a great salary. Her life seemed to be happy but only she knows she hasn’t even lost her first kiss yet. Her life is dull and painful. She received the wedding invitation from her roommate and the boy. She didn’t complain. She has never complained, has she? She went to the wedding, put the wedding present silently on a table next to the various gifts, and left the wedding. It hurt her but she didn’t speak. She hadn’t smiled for years.

When she was 29, her parents planned a wedding. They'd arranged a suitor for her, but she didn’t want to marry a guy she'd never seen. Who wants that? However, she nodded her head in agreement to her mother’s idea, for she is a good girl. She was soon married to a famous lawyer. Many people envied her, wanted to be her. Deep down, only she knows she is sad.

Three years after their marriage, her husband cheated on her. She pretended she did not know. A son was born and her lonely nights started. She didn’t complain. She retired from her job when her son was 6. She spent almost all her time raising her son. Her son grew well: he went to law school like his father did, graduated, and married a wealthy, beautiful woman.

When she was 65, she got paralysis and has been lying on her bed for the last 4 months. Her husband barely comes to visit, but her son comes often with his wife and son. She can’t speak at all; she is not much of a speaker these days.

Then, one night, she died with her mouth shut but eyes wide open. Her eyes, bulging slightly and appearing sad, long to share her story.

By Jorge G. Zavala
Creative Director

May in the United States is Asian Pacific American Heritage Month (APAHM). It is a celebration of the culture, traditions, and history of Asian-Americans and Pacific Islanders in the United States. Congress passed a joint Congressional Resolution in 1978 to commemorate Asian American Heritage Week during the first week of May. This date was chosen because two important anniversaries occurred during this time: the arrival of the first Japanese immigrants in the United States on May 7, 1843 and the completion of the transcontinental railroad (by many Chinese laborers) on May 10, 1869. In 1990 Congress voted to expand it from a week to a month long celebration and in May 1992, the month of May was permanently designated as Asian/Pacific American Heritage Month.

In honor of APAHM, Le Prestige conducted an interview with Chicago's very own Carla Navoa, "agitator extraordinaire" as she calls herself, to discuss her work and experience with the Asian-American community, her thoughts regarding immigration, and the "model minority" label.

1) What is the name of your organization and what is your role within it?

I work as a youth organizer at the Korean American Resource and Cultural Center (KRCC). I work closely with KRCC’s youth-led organizing council FYSH, Fighting Youth Shouting Out for Humanity, which provides a space to educate and empower young people who are passionate about creating change in their community.

2) In your opinion, what are some of the key issues important to the Asian American community you work with? What are their needs and wants?

One of the things I’m highly invested in working toward, of course, is immigration reform. As an undocumented immigrant, I understand my own struggles and my family's struggles. I cannot speak for anyone else other than myself, but I do see commonalities that connect my experiences with other undocumented young people.

Undocumented youth want to be able to attain higher education, to work, to be recognized as citizens of the country we contribute to everyday and consider home, and to access the rights we deserve.

For undocumented Asian Americans, many are very fearful of “coming out” and speaking publicly about their status for many reasons. In my experience, I know my family does not want others to know of our hardships; we refuse to be pitied. I think this frame of mind comes from our culture. But by sharing my story and taking the risk of putting myself in a vulnerable position, I am able to put a human face to the issue.

Since not many undocumented Asian Pacific-Islander Americans (APIA) come out publicly and take on leadership roles in the immigrants rights movement, the lack of visibility, I think, hinders more of us from participating and empowering ourselves. I see the need to create spaces for undocumented APIAs to connect with one another and work through the social stigma in our community and the shame many of us have internalized. Not only do undocumented APIAs bear the weight of society’s expectation to live up to the “model minority” standard, being undocumented places an even greater strain on one’s mental health and self-esteem. Therefore, I truly believe that a space to build community and a network of support makes all the difference. It has for me.

3) May is Asian Pacific American Heritage Month across the United States. Do you participate, individually or with your organization, in any events specific to empowering the APIA community?

Over the past couple of months, I began working with folks from Bayan-USA and Anakbayan to help coordinate the Anakbayan-USA Founding Congress that happened here in Chicago during the recent NATO summit. Anakbayan-USA is a national Filipino youth organization that works to empower, organize, and mobilize young people to fight for true democracy in the Philippines and stand up against US imperialism. Although this event does not directly connect to the city’s Asian Heritage Month celebrations, the Congress will serve as an opportunity to build political consciousness in the Filipino-American community.

I feel that this Congress is important to my work as an advocate for immigrants’ rights because the Filipino-American community is highly affected by America’s broken immigration system. According to the Department of Homeland Security, there were an estimated 280,000 undocumented Filipinos living in the U.S. in 2010. Unfortunately, undocumented Filipinos (or TNTs) are still very afraid to take action. Also, there aren’t many young Filipinos in Chicago who carry out social justice work. I feel like this is a chance for me to connect with other radical and progressive Filipino organizers from all over the country who can support my work and reconnect me with my roots.

4) What is the first thing you think of when you hear "illegal"?

Drop the I-word.

5) Immigration is a trending topic both in the media and in the lives of many Americans. What sorts of issues that you are aware of do Asian and Pacific Islander Americans (APIA) encounter with regards to immigration and barriers?

For Filipinos, the wait to attain a visa to immigrate to the U.S. can take up to 20 years. People cannot simply “wait in line” if they want to reunite with their families or to find greater economic opportunities. For many Asian Americans who come to the U.S. on student visas and decide to stay, they find themselves unable to gain legal status and become undocumented. Same goes for professionals who come on work visas and lose their jobs. It’s very easy to become undocumented if you’re not a citizen.

6) Many of us have heard Asian-Americans being considered the "model minority". What does this term mean and how do you see it as having both negative and positive connotations? Is it a term that hits home?

The model minority myth projects an image of Asian Americans as the “good” immigrant people who are self-made, educated, high-achieving, politically compliant, and a whole slew of other fallacies meant to create divisions between Asians (deemed “honorary whites”) and people of color. It’s a stereotype meant to cast down other people of color and blame individuals for their failure to overcome institutional barriers. Yes, many Asian American have gained economic success, but many also live below poverty level and graduate from high school at similar rates to Latinos and Blacks. The model minority myth does not extend to Pacific Islanders who largely lack visibility in the public imagination. Obviously, the model minority myth does more harm than good to our communities.

7) In your opinion, why do we need an Asian Pacific American Heritage Month? What are some of the contributions the APIA community has made to Chicago? What are some of the issues the community(ies) you work with encounter?

APIAs are unrepresented on many levels in society, from mainstream popular culture up to the political sphere. But APIAs played a vital role in this country’s history, which often receives little to no recognition. Advocacy organizations continue to fight for political representation, community-based organizations work to empower young people to serve as leaders, and educators shed light on the untold history and struggles of my people. I think Asian American Heritage Month is the least this country can do to recognize the importance of APIA communities’ contributions.

8) As someone who works across communities, what are some similarities you've encountered between the Asian Pacific-Islander American and Latino communities? What are some of the differences?

In terms of immigrant rights work, I find both communities understand the urgency of needing to push for immigration reform, but since Obama’s announcement on prosecutorial discretion I find a lot of organizations with a large base of Latino immigrants focus on PD as well as attacking detention centers and deportations. Whenever I hear of Asian-American families who have been placed in removal proceedings, they often leave voluntarily. I also see many families more willing to self-deport. Therefore, if there aren’t many APIAs faced with deportation who stand up to fight the law, then the advocacy organization cannot act separately from the community. I think the differences in focus makes sense since the majority of those currently in detention centers are Latinos.

Another thing I find problematic at times is the recent rhetoric around building “black-brown” solidarity on the issue of detention centers and the prison industrial complex as a way to strengthen alliances between communities fighting for immigrant rights and human rights. Sometimes I feel excluded as an Asian-American (even though I am brown, but many of my Asian friends would be considered “yellow”). Racial categories are constructed, but I still see a need to create more inclusive language in solidarity discourse.


Carla Navoa is a senior at the University of Illinois at Chicago studying English and Asian-American Studies. As an undocumented student and immigrants' rights advocate, Carla works as youth organizer at the Korean American Resource and Cultural Center where she coordinates after-school programs and KRCC's youth-led organizing council, Fighting Youth Shouting Out for Humanity (FYSH). FYSH works to empower immigrant youth to become leaders through art-making, cultural performance, community organizing, and civic participation.